Future Adventures

Today was my day to logically think about and explore my career options. Being open minded and keeping my feelings separate from my thoughts is not always the easiest thing for me.  I would love to work in the club in Eugene, but I do not know if that is an option or how much I am willing to grovel and what the consequences will be. I have had more then my fair share of consequences recently, so my threshold is low. I have an ego, but I know when to admit I was in the wrong.

However, the more I explore, options, the more I find fun feasible adventures. I realized that dancing in Oregon is fun, because it is where I started dancing. When I go out of state to work I get a priceless feeling. I used to get this feeling when I was new all the time. The new, exciting feeling that reminds me of why I love my job and why I continue to persevere.

Dancing in the town that I grew up in is not the greatest experience. Running into family, family friends, people from high school, college, and dairy mart workers is not always comfortable! I have learned to deal, but it still is never going to always be comfortable. Some dancers have it in them to appear comfortable always. I have not figured out how to do this all the way, but I it has to do with self worth, being healthy, stigmas, and not being ashamed of what we do.

The next couple weeks will be a fun ride. Dancing for years is an interesting experience no matter where. Seeing the world is a priceless perk. When I get lazy, comfortable, and stuck in a rut I forget this. I am ready to try a new state or perhaps even the Virgin Islands.

Half the fun is not knowing where I will end up or what it will be like!

~Zi-Fi

 

"If you think that you are bound, you remain bound; you make your own bondage. If you know that you are free, you are free this moment. This is knowledge, knowledge of freedom. Freedom is the goal of all nature."

~ Swami Vivekananda