Family Matters

Last night was a perfect reminder of how conservative, judgmental, and unsympathetic my family remains. One of my cousins came into the club with a bachelorette party. Most my family does not understand that my job is just a job. I enjoy what I do and have worked hard to get to this point. Yet, when they come into the clubs to see me at work, all they see is "the party". They do not witness the work I put into my job outside the club or see the painfully slow nights.

My lifestyle makes many people uncomfortable, especially my own family.

True colors come out when alcohol is in the mix. Last night, I was informed that my family, "Feels sad that I am "forced" to get naked for money."  Interesting because every dancer is human, just like me, with their own family. Some members of my family still choose to go to strip clubs, but heaven forbid I work in one.

After the years, I hoped they would have adjusted by now. But no and now it is time for hope to be lost. Why do I expect them to understand or at least not be judgmental? Probably because I support my family in their life choices. Some of my family members even choose to join the military during a time of war to kill people overseas as a job and they are supported by my family almost to a fault. But my job getting naked and smiling is wrong.

Where is their logic?

I am tired of apologizing for what I do for a job, while seeing envy in their eyes at the same time.
I am beyond tired of being judged by my own "loved ones."

~Zi-Fi

“Family love is messy, clinging, and of an annoying and repetitive pattern, like bad wallpaper.”
 Friedrich Nietzsche