My cousin left me at work last night, even though she had promised to drive me home. We had split a bottle of champagne, so I had to give up my car keys to the bar. This experience in itself made it very easy to identify why I value my possessions more then my own family. My possessions will not desert me and they rarely disappoint me.
Quite the realization after drinking! The manager told me that my cousin left and that was why I was in this situation. Which was harsh, but true. I have PTSD, therefore that simple statement made me have a flashback. Abandonment issues are something I struggle with daily. I have never had a great support system within my family. This is why I love Things!
Bad situation, good realization, and not too bad of an ending. One of my old friends came and got me and drove my car. I am not used to people telling me no. So, I know I was hell on the club staff, that I do feel badly about. I was mourning the sad realization that I can count on my friends more then most of my family. A strip club is not the place for eye opening life changing realizations!
~Zi-Fi
P.S. When I arrived at work last night there were roses waiting for me from a customer from Pdx. I love starting the night off on a good note. I opened them quickly in the dressing room just to take a peak and the costume lady had to comment. She asked me, "How big is his dick?" with a rude smirk. Shocking that even women who have danced forget the value of an emotional relationship. When two people actually add to each others lives and it is not a power struggle, it is a win win relationship.
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