A Case Of The Mondays

Today was my Monday. I took three days in a row off work, without leaving town. Very rough stuff for me. It does make me appreciate my freedom though! I had to move out of my office. Black and white world time is far from my favorite, but very necessary occasionally. Yes, strippers have real lives too.

Some even wear glasses. I went to go pay my house fees this week. I had on my glasses, sweats, and a hoodie, with my hair up. The bouncer did not recognize me and apologized. I found that very amusing and interesting. It made me realize why I do not like to dress up in town. And why I have so many pairs of sweats that are too big for me in my closet, that I love to wear! My wake and wear as The Certain One called it.

Over stimulation was my issue tonight, to say the least! I just was not ready for it. At heart I am an introvert. I love to read and spend time alone. Growing up an only child, I learned quick how to entertain myself and have a good time. However, I am still prone to cabin fever. When I just want to go out and be around people. I am human, just as we all are.

It is odd that I have my off days, where I just don't feel like dancing and smiling. People can sense it from my body language, even if I do not speak. I still have not figured out how to fake it till I make it on some days. This kills me! I am a professional and have been doing this for years. Where is my game face? I know what I am doing, both right and wrong. But I just cannot get my head in the game.

This used to happen at my other "real" jobs, so I know it is not limited to dancing. This is the small piece of wisdom keeps me sane on nights like tonight. Or on nights when drunk customers with beer breath talk to me up close, spitting as they speak. And it is especially nice when they say how beautiful you are when it is questionable if they can even see straight.

But tomorrow is always a new day or night, whatever. And it is Friday, but my Tuesday-ish....

May the Hustle be with Me!

~Zi-Fi

"The practice of patience protects us from loosing out composure."
~Dalai Lama