The Call

I got the call I have been waiting for!

Today it happened. I was almost late to work tonight, because I was talking on the phone. And I absolutely despise talking on the phone. But it is the closest I get to be to the Certain One until I get on an airplane. So, I have to take what I can get. Knowing he cares is all that really matters to me. A connection with someone who pushes me to evolve and accepts me for me(faults, job, and all), is different and better then anything I have ever experienced before! A good feeling to say the least!

I know I am supposed to be a heartless stripper, but that is just not who I am. I have realized that when I turn into that heartless stripper, I am not happy. It is not worth it. The money is not that much better. It is just more of a game. An emotionally draining game.

Tonight, I ran into a regular customer I used  to see weekly when I first started dancing in Eugene, years ago. He used to make me brownies, banana bread, and all kinds of goodies. Amazing people do go to strip clubs! He treats me like a real person, and has watched me evolve into the stripper I am today.

It was amazing the feelings that seeing him brought back. I love being on stage. I love connecting with good people. I love to smile and laugh. I love to be me, but entertain at the same time. But I am selective on who I let in my bubble. In a sense I am stuck up, I will not show all my cards to just anyone.

I  have done more then my fair share of playing dumb! 

Well my old hussle is back:  Just smile and dance.
The difference is amazing.
I got my shine back!


~Zi-Fi


"Let me know
 Do I still got time to grow
 Things ain't always set in stone...
 I know my destination
 But I'm just not there..."
  ~Kanye West