Goals Change When Manifesting Dreams

Looking back over my blog posts from last year, specifically the post Sugar Daddies. I realized such a change in my thinking! I check my email about once a day. Now replying to emails where perspective Sugar Daddies contact me, rarely do I browse profiles anymore. I  have to admit the shift is odd. Reminds me of when I very first started stripping.  Perhaps, I am just jaded now, but I am reading the book, "Memoirs of a Geisha."  And the tern they use "danna" reminds me of Sugar Daddies. I realize their importance, but my heart gets in the way if I think about it too much!

Dancing at a strip club is similar to sitting at a teahouse entertaining like the geishas did centuries ago and still do.  A girl/woman can make a decent living just sitting at the teahouse/strip club. But decent has never really been satisfying to me. A curse and a blessing at the same time!

Goals Change when Manifesting Dreams!

Times have changed. Now I do focus on dancing more, because I started at a new club at home. There is always a learning curve to a new club in town. When other dancers know the same regular customers, it is hard not to step on toes! So I have made my presence known, but I have yet to hussle hard. I am not sure how long this will last because I like money too much, but side projects help too.

For example, this blog of journals I am going to turn into a book. I am close like 40/50 more posts and I can start compiling/editing my first Book.

Evolution and growing up mean not only realizing your dreams, but manifesting them as well! Never did I think I would be a writer, but now it is so. I am beginning to see the finish line.

Being only halfway to a dream is hard on one's heart! People in general do not want you to reach your dreams, because then it makes them feel inferior. So, they hope for your failure.

Envy looks really ugly on anyone!

~Zi-Fi

"...but a geisha who wishes to become a star is completely dependent on having a danna."
~Memoirs of a Geisha
Arthur Golden